It has been a bad week for me. Can someone just kill me and get it over wf. Im soo tired and sick of all this. Danial just called me. He didnt believe what I told hym. Seems that he doesnt trust me anymore but it doesnt matter anymore. Im just soo tired of all this. I just wish that lyfe has a stop and rewind button. Y cant he understand? I love hym wf all my heart and gave hym everything and this is what he return to me. Cant he atleast appreciate what I hav done for hym. Its soo hard. This is the only place I can let everything out coz I knw that he wont read this ever. I thought love was a happy thing but no... its soo hurtful that I hope I wont fall in love ever again. Thanks alot huh.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Labels: No man, No pain

I woke up at 5am just to cook for Danial. 6.45am Danial called and told me he just woke up so I sent it to his house and went to skool together. I was late so I was lectured by Pearl. Aftr skool, went back then went again to Danial's house to pass my shoe to his sis. Then I checked his phone (inbox), there was a few mcgs frm this girl. The mcg was soo mesra.. It shows that Danial misses her and always complain to her and she was always there to cheer hym up. I checked one of the mcg was ytd at 10.48pm and he told me that his pp8 low since that day and told me that he doesnt use his phone anymore. I was sooo stupid to believed all his lies. I gave my all to him and he treat me lyk this. Mayb he thinks that I will nvr find out.. well, he's wrong. I cant forgive hym. Its too much. I forgave hym frm tym to tym but not this tym. I was soo crushed. So my sis was wf me, imagine.. we walked all the way frm his hse to JP and I cried lyk crazy while walking. I felt soo heartbroken. Here I am, ignoring the guys and there he is mcging n complaining to another girl. I am sooo STUPID! I seriously hate myself for believing his lies. The biggest regret I have is to meet hym and second to take ECH. How could I be soo blind and dumb?!
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Labels: Unforgiveable

My lyfe sucks. I just wish that i had an accident and i had a coma for several months and forget the bitter part of my lyfe. Yes. I guess that's my wish for now. I just wish that I can run away from all this nonsense for awhile. Well, Danial ask me to gy mampos earlier. So, yeah...
I had a bad day and there he thinks that he is the only one wf problems and dont care what I am feeling.
School was terrible. I just feel lyk going to the beach n just stroll or sit there, listening to the waves while clearing my mind.
Send someone to really really really love me. Please.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Labels: Unappreciated

Hey! Im soo tired today. Went to skool at 8am till 3.30pm. I was late but who cares.. LPD was abit sucky today. After skool, met Danial. I waited for hym for HALF AN HR at Raffles Place. Then we lepak at Jurong then I picked up Adam. Bought chocolate which cost $7.20. Ugh! Mcm mane nk save money..
Anyways, tmr hav group meeting. Means I hav to bring all my nonsense stuff to skool. I forget to bring my paper bag puppet home and tmr hav to pass up and it will be graded. Sucks man!
Gosh! I thought ITE lyfe would be simple but NO... I think its the course. My course is soo hard and requires alot of money man.. Itu nta bole graduate ke tk.. Bsk pon hav to pass up 2 'journal entry' and we hav to reflect on it.  My classmates also some attitude lyke shit. Tmrw is my 2years 11months anniversary wf Danial. Shooo shaadddddedddd. :(
Hope tmr will be a better day for me and for all!
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje :)

Labels: Love Me

Okkaaayyy. After work, i went to Danial's aunt's house. It was super damn big man. Danial and I swimmed. I thought Danial couldn't swim. But I was wrong.. Then we went upstairs and showered ( different room of course)
Every room there has a bathroom and every bathroom has a bathtub. How I wish the room was mine. The room and bathroom was super duper cool as if Im in a hotel or something. So went I reached home, I cleaned the toilet and my room. Hehs. Well, its still abit messy now but its better. Ouhya, while working, I saw this nice bag but the shop sells expensive stuff. So yeah.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje :)

Labels: Dream Big

Hola! Whats up? Soo... I havent been writing since 1993.. hehs.. okay.. since months.. Update of my lyfe.. Danial and I broke up on 6 October 2010 and havent patch up since but.. we are still contacting each other.. hehs.. but for me, its different now.. It just doesnt feel the same anymore. Now his temper lyke become worser and easily irritated. I just dont really feel the same when im wf hym now. Its lyke he is there but he is there not for me anymore. I also dont really feel protected when im wf hym now. Well, as always.. he stood me up again. Stupid me. But love is a hard thing to say.. If only he knew what I am thinking and feeling.. As usual, his frens are more important to him than compare to me.. I may say its okay. but in reality, I feel lyk shouting.. Its Not okay. Im not your toy you know. You use me whenevr you want and i'll b there for you anytym lyke a desperate girl. I just cant resist him. Mayb this is what you call true love but I guess im the only one loving hym.. I feel lyke doing a makeover on myself. Just to make me happy and confident but i dont know how. My skool sucks! So many assignments and make up classes.. Its soo irritating. Some of my classmates is seriously soo irritating. They keep bitching around. While they themselves...well.. arent that perfect either. Ugh..
I also feel lyke quiting my job coz i dont lyke the place and the people. But i need money!!!
So I guess i'll b staying for awhile.
Conclusions.. I still love Danial.. My skool and work sucks! I need money and a make over.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje :)

Labels: Love Me