Hey.. It's been months since i blogged. So yeah.. Alot of stuff happen lately. Well, hmm.. I've enrolled in driving and still in the theory stage. Hahahaha. 22nd December is my Basic Theory Test. Wish me luck :)
Next up, Danial cheated on me with a 15 year old girl -_-
She's my sister's and Danial's sister's age. They met twice and had sex. So yeah.. Kill me. I've been crying every night. Thinking about it hurts like @$%&. I rather he tell me straight in my face that he had another girl than do this to me.I was soo stupid to believed his lies. Guess what? Danial sanggup gy Sengkang where the girl lives there just to meet her when he was still wf me. Bitch. Double bitch. I mean like our distance is just 20mins away and sanggup he waste his time and ezlink on a bitch. You know, i treated both of them so nice. I messaged that girl on FB saying sorry to her on Danial's behalf but he doesn't know this. He said that im very zalim. Well, in my opinion, what he did to me was more zalim-er. To think i said sorry to her on his behalf as if im the one stealing Danial from her. And i think that girl has other guy to but i bet Danial didn't know. I always hope that karma hit him but when karma really hit hym, i feel sad and heartbroken. I dont even know why im feeling this way. Sometimes i just hope that i lost my memory so that i could re-start my life. I love hym too much to hurt hym but he doesn't feel what i feel. Sometimes i pray that ALLAH open his heart and mind. That's all i can do. I mean i waited for hym, tahan wf hym and this is what i get. As much as i love hym, sometimes i need hym to love me back. Ytd, he sort of blame me for his lost of youth/teenage years. Im like.. -_-
I wasted almost four years with you. I tahan your nonsense, temper, lies, betrayal, actions, words and you cheat on me. You break my heart like nobody's business and now, you blame me? I wasted my youth/teenage on you. Haish. If he really loved me, he wouldn't have done this to me. I feel like a pathetic loser :(
Anyways, sad heartbreaking story aside. Now, im like addicted to the song "I love you like a love song" by Selena Gomez. Yes. It's the girl that dates with Justin Bieber. Okayy.. I still can't forget what he did to me laa. I mean you can't expect me to forget this episod in a few days right. It hurts too much. Gosh. Someone just save me.
Now, im home alone. Nobody's home. Its just me, myself and i. I miss Danial but im refraining myself from calling hym. I dont want hym to label me as clingy or stalker or insecure. Oh wait. He already does. It sucks.
I know this post is like super long. You dont know how much damage i have gone through. Im mending my own heart since there's no one out there to repair it for me. Pathetic much. Yeah, imma pathetic loser.
I think i hear the gate. Yeah! My sister is home :)

Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥